Quarter 4- Journal 3: This stupid cycle...

is absolutely killing me. I am stuck in this rut called my room because of IB. I want to go out and see my friends, but I can't. I'm stuck here doing homework. But I'm so sick of homework, so I don't do work that effectively. But I can't leave, because then I really won't get anything done. So I'm really just stuck here, waiting for something to happen, but nothing does. I eventually finish my homework, but by then it's too late to do anything. And then the next day, a project or paper is assigned, and I find myself in the same place again. I'm so done with school. The challenge doesn't even make me happy anymore. I don't even have time to do educational things that I want to do, like read for pleasure, or study SAT vocabulary words. This doesn't even start to make up for all the "teenager" things I want to do, like hang out with my friends or play video games. I am also so incredibly out of shape for cross country next year. I need to start training for this. But I've decided that all this unhappiness is no way to live my life. I need to start figuring something out to snap back into reality. This is life as I know it, and I need to man up and face the challenge. There's just no motivation... I need something like a miracle, and I need it soon. My grades won't make it if I don't.